DREARY.

BABY'S ARTSY EXAM.

2005-11-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

I WNA REJOICE.
CUZ I'M DONE W BOYFRIEND'S ARTSY.
:DD
COMPLETEDDDD.

TMR'S YOUR ARTSY EXAM BOY.
YOU'D BETTER PASS IT WELL OKAYS.
NO MORE FEVER, NOT SICK.
SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT.
HORRRS.
MUSTN'T LET MY EFFORTS GO TO WASTE EHS.
=P

HERE'S THIS BIGGGG LUCKIE KISS TO YOU.
MUACK*
PSST.
CAN'T KISS YOU IN THE MORNING, YOUR MOM'S HOME LAAS.
SO KEEP THIS WELL.
I KNW YOU CAN PASS IT.

YOU STILL GOT MINDMAP HEHHS.
TMR MORNING DO FASTER.
HORRRS.

LOVE YOU HERCULES.
:DD
MUACK*

crimson.

2005-08-30T18:09:00.000+08:00

for all tht i care.
hahaha.
nonsense.

what's it suppose to mean ?
blue or grn.

hais.

infatuated.

i AM petty.
loathe me laas.

you walked away.
ruinedd.

i won't cry.
evn whn no one understands.

flaws.
i have thm too.

FIFTEEN

2005-05-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

we're smashed..
shaggidalic.
the chalet.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY TAN SIXUAN.
fifteen and going.
at least, i managed to do something
that i've alwys wnted to do.
'OVERSLEEPING'
let the pictures do the talking..

SWTHRT's fifteen.
getting there..

darln got so excited n unpacking.

the excitement wasnt tamed down.

hehh.

everyone, so addicted to the XBOX.

SPICED DINNER.

TIFFANY.

JOLLIED AND BERGED.

checking out.

she fell deep into sleep on the cab.

home sweet home.

herfabulousfifteen.

2005-05-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

swthrt has a new name..
'tiffany' it shall be.
checkpoints.
the chalet is tomorrow, waited so long.
its her fifteen at twelve tonight.
her boyfrndd shall be by her side the whole day,
she'll be darn happy. overwhelmed.
we're getting married tmr,
grand like the royalties.
it'll be wonderful..
stunning.
ilorveher.

COPYCAT.

2005-05-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

copycat.
i swore.
he is such a ridicule.
ludicrous.
hilarious peepos.
mahjong.
made a new frndd, sweekee.
nice lil lady. (:
the hammerngg. cnt take it no more.
THUD. drive it awye.
idiots.
cutehole's darn cute.
she wore her bra the wrngg waye rnd.
totallyy absurb.
flunkdd.
anticipated.
boyfrndd rode me up the hill andd up the hill on my bike.
candied.
gawds.
mesmerised by his seriousness.
two dayes more.

***

the fear.
will evrythngg change?

splittnggheadache.

2005-05-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

crackdd, it seems to be.
awfulness.
so much for the guilt,
yet narffin cld be done.
frkngg bum.

***

scrimp and save time.

nvr go shoppngg w/ momsie agn.
dreary. \:
dada's gone.
flew to holland.
whd if..
halves.
you feel the pain?
THUD.

regrets.
too many.
why are they comngg back nw?
i didnt thnkk i need thm.
bruisedd.

shuang's gone to shanghai.
guess i'll be alone for art.
ting's gone thr too.
whrs her crap.
im missngg thm alrdy.

lingeries.
teehee. :DD

goingcrazy.

2005-05-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

jst feel so good, try being pampered.
he loves her truckloads.
alvin's birthday, it had been sucha long since the last meet up.
everyone is still so crappy as before,
i let out my laughter freely.
swthrt been a wonderful SWTHRT.

swthrt and me.

firm skin.

stress out dude.

cutehole and the three mirror image.

boyfrnddteardd. ):

2005-05-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

how do lizards crawl?
HAHA. \:
she cldnt stop thm at all.
didnt anticipatdd it.
realisation:
spendthrift.
shld be discriminatdd.
tsktsk.
damndd.
the ugly facts.
surfacngg unto the false.
blinded.
it aint it.
ive found you.
movngg on, i see you.
harppie indeed, yet contradictngg.
i cldnt figure the rest, questionmarks.
erased.
sorry.

***

i'll be sendngg TING andd SHUANG off this sundaye.
alngg w/ boyfrndd andd chong.
i guess i'll miss thm.
though thnggs were a lil sourdd;
undone the doned mess.
mistaken perhaps.

mmms.
six more to go.
race past me.
i cnt wait. :DD

distinctly unrecognised.

starwars.

2005-05-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

tremblngg.
weak. \: absurb.
dwnright ruindd.
overcomedd.
TO BOYFRNDD'S LOVRS:
his msn is dwn.
so SCREW IT.
pms-y still. tsk.
bro's gna buy me a BIGGBIGG pressie.
he said it.
i fcukngg lied todaye.
shuang andd wenchong are farnie peepos. (:
finallyy gort to go out w/ thm.
starwars.
i like master yoda.
plain cute. he's so grn. :DD

***

whd if i collapse nw..

i jst wna hld yr hand andd wlk through tht dark lane w/ you once more.

sry. ididntmeanthm.

2005-05-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

ive been a meanie.
offends.
jst spat thm.
guilt, yars.
it seems like a force.
damndd.
apologetic, yet dwn the drain.
sealdd.
doesnt process through the mind.
nonsense.
ludicrous.
whd is all these.
yr destroyngg tht fragile thngg.
FCUK, pls go and die.

slurpee. :DD

2005-05-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

two birdies.
birdies hop, they dnt fly.
haas. tinkle.
boyfrndd's gone soccerngg. (:
CAPTAIN FOR THREE YRS.
must be very pro ehs. b:
saw him kick the ball before. lols.
SUAVE. :DD
danggs-
im stuck home. sad case.
slurpee.
lil chats.
lkdd through the neos.
memories.. miss thm.
danggs-
cnt brngg thm back.

grn.
amber.
red.

***

whd if you slip past my hands agn?

rainee. :DD

2005-05-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

god gave us an umbrella.
didnt give us much sheltr, but at least we had tht wee bit of nort gettn' so drenchdd. (:
splashngg in puddles.
holdngg the rusty umbrella.
gettngg soakdd.
haas, i had fun. (:
the chilly breeze.
boyfrndd's gna get straight A1s for humans.
awww. i thnkk im gna so flunk.
princessmoo. b: SNIFFS.
pms-y. tsktsk*
RAINEE. :DD
eee. IRKSOME creature.
feelngg CHEENA. b:
ive thrwn the SHITTY memories all awye.
dnt wna brngg thm back anymore.
cuz, you suckdd andd suck. :DD
HEHH.
yr mine. (:
TMR's the EIGHTEENTH.
BIGGBIGG REMINDR.

bitchandswthrt. (:

2005-05-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

i knw i love grn.
but i hate beingg grn.
DAMNDD.
pls go awye.
dnt let the swtness fade awye.
savourngg.
turn me upside dwn.
i'll still say I LOVE YOU.
cuz i really really do.
(:

***

HEYYS BITCH.
yr wntdd para.
okayes im here to announce tht she still owes me FRIED RICE.
her fried rice tht she cooks is YUMMY.
:DD
she's my cutearse.
i LOVE her.
she gort caught by jamil todaye.
awww.
jamil saidd her fringe lks like the tree.
haas. POOR KIDDO. b:
she seems to be broodngg ovr it.
dnt cry kayes.
it lks more like a helmet.
haas. :DD
anyhows. i still love you lars!
sry boutx the psngg here andd thr evrytime. b:
I KNW YR THE BEST LARS.
the CUTEST frko i LOVELOVELOVE.
bitch, i wnt to mingle.
snaps.

swtness.meltme.

2005-05-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

sugaredd.
indeed.
rewind.
cnt help it.
the swtness.
damndd. (:
sry for the two hours wait.
REJECTDD once; despairdd.
lovely brows.
debonair.
melts.
he is my boyfrndd.
so, so mine.
didnt wnt you leavngg. ):
can evrydaye be this perfect?
i love you BIG.

jst plain swtness.

2005-05-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

it was jst so sweet the whole day.
everythang was jst so in place, i barely see any flaws.
made five reminders on swthrt's phone, it went to waste.
it was supposed to come off every five mintues.
i love the brown eyes.
still love the watch, showed off.
i'm super bloated with the stuffing and gorging of food.
swthrt barely touched hers.
her parents seriously discriminates PEOPLE.
crystal is darn smelly, POOF~
TODAY IS A FREAKING BLOODY SWT DAY!
dig this. CANT GET ANY BETTER.

updated by: GORGEOUS BOYFRNDD

thirdmonth. (:

2005-05-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

ruindd surprise.
bruised andd battered by yr wrds.
dazed andd shattered nw it hurts.
Haven't i alwys loved you?
wnt ovr.
ignorance.
math andd geog. \: bummr.
upside dwn.
smhow mesmerisedd.
ive missdd you.
i did.
swt.
accompaniedd him to guitar lessons.
waitdd. (:
wnt for mos.
we were harppie todaye.
i still am.
FOURTEENTH. (:
boyfrndd lks so debonair.

***

i hope you like the watch andd the studs.

three filled months.

the unexpected swatch watch and studs.

the HOTTIES.
;stan.

iwontcryanymores.

2005-05-13T18:29:00.000+08:00

evntually.

whdiyrnforisyoutobeyouagn.

2005-05-12T17:28:00.000+08:00

i miss you.

thnggsthtnvrshldhappen.

2005-05-11T20:34:00.000+08:00

whd if i die in a carcrash todaye?
whd if im lyngg on the bed unconcious?
wld my frndds cry for me?
wld you care?

evrythngg's slippng awyy.
losngg.
all of you.

abandondd.

purplygrn.

2005-05-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

boyfrndd's mr purply.
im GRN.
swthrt. (:
msges/mail.
despairdd.
but his smile brightendd up my daye.
he slpt only for a few hours.
poor mr purply.
MUST SLP EARLY TONIGHT.
demands. :DD
met up w/ sheepsanddcows.
for boutx halfanhour.
we chattdd crappdd.
she hasnt grwn tallr. b:
but still veryy cute.
i had fun. (:
thnkk you.
thnggs were sourdd in the morns.
evrythngg turndd alright.
picture perfect.
no more thnkk yous.
onlyy i love yous. b:
you are my Only One;
Harppie Momsie Daye.
the rain rockdd. :DD
sir became my brOsir.
he's so niceyy. hehh.
bitch was tlkngg to herself jst nw. urps.
her berfdaye's comngg! b: harppie for her.
psst. must get tht smthngg for erhrMs.

pissddoff.missngg.lost.

2005-05-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

tk you for grntdd.
nw, i miss you.
gna be left alone for a daye.
perhaps.
i need you.
dnt cryy.
im afraidd.
can hide the fear.
but its hardd.
i wish i cld be w/ you right nw.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
whr are you;
i wnt to cryy so badlyy.
fcuk this life.
hell w/ it.
nights.
tell me you wldnt go tmr. ):
i wna be yr perfect princess.
i still miss you badly.

mycommitment. iwntitcomn'true.

2005-05-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

whn i grw up;
im gna marry you. (:
loves ma stanley.

thtbloodybitch.

2005-05-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

vindicatdd.
i am selfish i am wrngg;
insolence.
damndd.
abhordd.
the perplexityy.
ghoulish.
atts.
cynicism.
zip it.
evrythngg is jst a replica.
i cldnt see whd you meant.
but yr jst a plain copycat who denies it all.
i loathe you.
shrugs.
flunkdd amath like crazy.
anticipatdd tht.
managedd to pass emath.
i love the rain.
i love grn.
i love you. (:
x listen to me you arsehole.
BOYFRNDD is cute.
it feels like the exams are so ovr.
:DD
pms-y.
i wntdd to cry. \:
hehh. insanity.
and so;
she loves him.
__________________
eighteen.
its all boutx you.

eln'sberfdaye. (:

2005-05-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

HARPPIE BERFDAYE DARLNGG ELN. :DD
okayes. i can rob boyfrndd's house tmr.
he left his keys at my house.
muahahas.
i fedd boyfrndd LUNCHIE todaye. (:
am i swt or whds?
danggs-
boyfrndd gave me one of his sch u.
im gna wear it soon. w/ his nametag on.
cool rights?
damndd.
evrythngg is sour.
but you seem swt.
make me harppier cuz im nort harppie yet.
hehh.
im such a losr.

confession. :DD

2005-05-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

ive gort a confession to make.
I LOVE MY BOYFRNDD.
:DD
he is SO cool.
HORTTIE.
mine. (:
arent you jealous?
b:
addiction;

'MYWISHEYES.

2005-04-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

brwn eyes.
thickk dark brows.
PERFECT.

sopainful.

2005-04-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

tell me.
dnt cryy;
<3
icntssimyou.
can i go ovr..?
gdnight was all tht was left.

***

after a min*
in tha swt surrendr signdd in.
him: ILOVEYOU.
her: i thought you wnt to bedd?
him: i liedd.
him: i was waitn' for yr updatdd entryy.
her: how did you knw i jst updatdd?
him: i refreshdd evry min.
GAWDS.
can you tell me how swt can he get?!
i thought i was boutx to die whn he left to bedd.
thn he cld come backk andd make me smile like crazy.
ive NVR saidd he was swt.
this time, he reallyy is.
TOO SUGAREDD.
candifiedd;
ILOVEYOU boyfrndd. :DD

'stupidbitch.lols.

2005-04-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

so my haloscan is so useless nw.
I BLOODYHELL THNKK THT NO ONE READS THIS FRKN' BLOGG ANYMORE.
hehh.
whdevr.
momsie bought me sushi for dinnr.
:DD
here's a storyy entitledd my bi.tch's stupidity.
todaye durngg recess i was sittngg w/ bi.tch in the canteen.
she was lkn' at the TEEBEE screenin' the OBS thngg.
she: did you play the trust fall thngg game?
I LKDD AT HER. w/ ugly eyes.
me: IM IN YR GRP!
danggs-
she frkn' held onto the mat andd saw me fall onto it can! \:
hehh. okayes. she's CUTE lars.
thr are so many aeroplanes tonight.
IVE SEEN THREE LIGHTS MOVN UP INTO THE SKY!
hehh.
went for check up todaye.
the backk thngg andd the eye thngg.
managedd to skip SS. andd half of math.
waye cool.
have been rathr dwn these few dayes.
dnt knw whyy.
i seem to enjoy beingg alone.
smhow whn evryone seems to be in this convo
andd evryone seems to be so into it
i wldd sit smwhr furthr awyy.
weird. okayes whdevr.
I FCUKNGG DNT WNA CARE.
I DNT WNA KNW EITHR.
pls go awyy.
boyfrndd, stardie hardd.

'MYFRKN"BERFDAYEWISH.

2005-04-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

ITS A MONTH ANDD A FEW DAYES AWYY.
I KNW WHDD I WNT.
I WNT IT BADLY.
but its too much to ask for.
):
HE LOVES ME.
evrybodyy shld check out Good Charlotte's- Ghost Of You.
BIGG BIGG THNKK YOU TELICIA! :DD

smtimes i still cnt believe tht yr my lovr.
its like a drm-come-true.
TOO GD TO BE TRUE.
yr my eyecandyy.
I Am Imperfection.
sixuan is a greedy ARSEHOLE.
I WNT A SLPOVR.
LALALAS.
my life.
IM KINDA GROUNDEDD. \:
but who cares.
RAHHS.
I FRKN' LOVE MY BOYFRNDD.
heyy.
to the SO MANYY FAGGOTS out thr.
I DNT WISH TO KNW.
so dnt bothr telln' me.
IM NORT INTERESTDD. (:
nort GRN.
boyfrndd's house is alwys crowdedd.
BUT ITS WARMLY and COSY.
TSK. b:
NIGHTS FRKOS.
thr's piano lesson tmr. DANGGS-

i..

2005-04-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

thnggs werent meant to be like this.
i wont cryy, cuz i did alrdyy.
jst ytd.
i wont cryy anymore.
i wont smile eithr.
you tld me evrythngg wldd be alright whn we meet.
smhow find You and I collide.
smtimes whn you findd evrythngg so far aprt, evryone so far behindd.
im close behindd.
I Miss You.
i cnt feel anythngg nw.
Numbdd.
i wont have anyy wishes anymore.
theyy nvr do come true at all.
jst lies.
evn if im nort smiln' anymores, i'll love youu still the same.
you might doubt it.
but Its True.
the darkest side.
No One Thr But Me.
but, I'll nort cryy.

'freedomlesss.

2005-04-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

its how much i wnt my freedom,
jst to be able to spendd my time w/ youu.
didnt youu knw?
this is my life.
my FCUKDD UP life.
screw thm.
I'm sorry.

'youusaiddidntdoteonyou.

2005-04-23T10:16:00.000+08:00

demure.
thnggs i smhow cnt seem to understndd.
too shallow.
piggybackk ride.
up tht flight of stairs.
chemistryy.
bruisedd andd battrdd by yr wrds.
dazedd andd shatterdd nw it hurts.
heaven i alwys lovedd youu?
receivedd frm youu.
given to youu.
ive triedd.
but youu deniedd it all.
imperfection lies here.

'tmr'sfrkn'sportsdaye.

2005-04-21T20:44:00.000+08:00

tmr. (:
i wnt the longg punkyy sleeves. b:
DEMANDS. :DD
im in LOVE w/ my boyfrndd.
so totallyy.

'whyychooseher?

2005-04-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

i cnt believe thnggs the waye it is nw.
my frndd.
id rathr he wlk awy, thn be w/ tht girl.
how much i wnt to tell him tht.
but i cnt.
its perplexdd.
its nort selfishness on my part.
its her.
i dnt wnt him hurt. thts all.
im carngg for a frndd.
i dnt knw.
i knw he doesnt mean anythngg anymores.
he's jst tht shit frndd i have in bandd.
the one who points middle fingers at me.
diss me andd stuffs crudelyy.
stop fooln', you bitch.
maybe i cnt tell him anythngg.
i dnt wna be some ruiner. \:
i guess i'll miss him whn he grads. all the SHITTY nonsense.
evn chelmin saidd so. hehh.
yuppss. (: but im gladd he's harppie nw.
at least i hope he is.
;i wna be tht girl.
tht girl who is perfect in yr eyes.
aint thr yet.
fcukdd up life.
YR JST SOME LOSER.
yr my addiction;
lkngg backk.

'theprettyprettyeyebrows.

2005-04-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

adore him whn he slps.
its veryy cute. (:
the seriousness.
the frwn.
the sterness.
\:
i love his eyebrows.
darn pretty.
SO SO GRN.
NIGHTS ARSEHOLES.

'eighteenthGIRLFRNDD.

2005-04-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

perhaps, grn.
it kills.
it reallyy does, trust me.
i believe youu though.
(:
he slpt.
i stardiedd tht wee bit.
the afternoon went by.
he tldd me it wldd be a wonderful daye.
its a harppie harppie one.
he's out w/ his familyy,
in his new car. :DD
he's veryy harppie.
chocos are nice.
phys is a confirmdd flunkk thngg alrdyy.
i miss my fave sl. (:
star virgo. \: titanic?
onlyy star cruise.
sampan.
chem test tmr.
need to ask ze to teach me math tmr.
this fridaye's sports daye. danggs-
evryone has sunburn. I DNT.
im nort anywhr tanner, im nort peeln.
WHDD SHIT IS THIS? hehh.
dao dai andd tong hua are nice songgs.
oyeah.
i dnt see you as you anymores.
im gna cut my hair tmr!
rahhs. X:
screwdd.
i dnt wna waste my time,
watch youu fade awyy.
JEALOUSY is a poison.
burn.
lighter.
she thnkks she rocks.
but no.
she thnkks she has thm.
but no.
WHDEVR.
fcukdd up thngg.
i shldnt be dislikn you.
so dnt make me loathe you.
its the EIGHTEENTH.
my fave sl SHOUTDD harppie anniversaryy to me! :DD
its damn nice.
i owe her a letter. b:

'CIP.

2005-04-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

the more i lk,
the more i get mesmerisedd.
but whn he starts gettn' shyy,
the smile leaks out.
its reallyy cute. :DD
boyfrndd gets shyy TOO.
went to loy's place this morns.
IN MY NEW CAR. :DD
momsie fetchdd me thr. w/ crystal takn' the carride too.
rottedd thr smhow.
i was still so slpyy. \:
he was watchn' golf. URPS. i dnt knw how to appreciate lors. HEHH. b:
thn we went to kovan.
WAITDD for clauds andd faith.
darns. we left loy's too earlyy.
danggs-
met up thn went to serangoon station.
SPCA didnt wnt us.
triedd renci. rejectdd.
went to st. anne's. nobodyy. \:
decidedd on clauds's house.
went thr.
evryone was like bushdd.
slpt in the bus.
reachdd her place andd we were offerdd yummy food. :DD
her mom's nice. (:
i love her house. its damn europian kindd.
we hadd to transfer eight fishes frm the outside pondd to the inside pondd.
boyfrndd went into the pond w/ her maidd.
i was like so boredd. didnt dare to go inside.
in the endd i made up my mindd.
went in. startdd tryngg to fish the fishes. lols.
but thn realisedd tht all eight fishes were transferdd. \:
was like. DANGGS-
the pondd was so slimyy.
ALGAES. hehh.
thn went to clauds rm.
slpt for awhile.
fooldd arndd.
packdd packdd.
thn clauds hadd to go to her church.
so we left.
her dada fetchdd me andd boyfrndd to serangoon garden.
here's the CLIMAX for todaye.
boyfrndd triedd to starve me.
he didnt wna buyy fries for me.
he forcedd me to eat the beef noodles frm the frkn' NO AIR CONNDD food centre.
HEHH.
ahahas.
no lars. jst jestn'.
he's nice.
he brought me to macs in the endd.
I TK THIS REALLY CUTE PIC OF HIM TOUCHNGG HIS HAIR JST NW.
awww. damnit. its darn cute lars.
i realisedd i have this stupidd roundd face.
i feel like cuttng off some fats. \: IM LIKE DISFIGUREDD.
hehh.
okayes. so we went to macs andd enjoydd the aircon.
till i gort too coldd.
we tk the bus backk.
he wlkdd me home.
nw he's on his waye home.
im supposedd to call him lars.
but youu see, laziness gort the better of me.
SO BOYFRNDD.
dnt blame me lars. b:
ive concludedd.
clauds andd faith are nice peepos. (:
nort like smbody else. EEEKS.
im dreadngg SCH tmr. HELP ME.

'deniall.

2005-04-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

whdd if one daye,
youu were to denyy one of my kisses.
dnt knw whdd i'd do.

'zhendema?

2005-04-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

i cnt denyy tht boyfrndd lks darn debonair w/ longg punkyy sleeves. :DD
melissa babe caught me todaye. she was w/ her boyfrndd. I DIDNT SEE. \:
went to watch infection at lido w/ boyfrndd todaye.
i actuallyy agreed on watchn' it w/ him. weirdd. b:
it was gross. nort tht scaryy. i hadd boyfrndd. thts whyy.
:DD jealous?
rushdd to ps for boyfrndd's electric guitar lessons.
i waitdd for him outside.
saw howchye. (:
one hour passdd. hehh.
was decidngg on whr to eat whn we saw our new phys t'chr at ps too.
he was wearngg specs. \: HEHH.
went to ajisen for dinner.
came home.
CAUGHT SMBODY. :DD
my boyfrndd's candifiedd.
him: gen ni zai yi qi hen xing ku.
her: gen wo zai yi qi zhen de you na me xing ku ma?
him: wo pian ni de la. zi you na me yi dian.
evn if its tht lil, i lost his phone. lost the receipt.
am a lousyy gf.
FRKN' ME.
dawn andd i realisedd the yumminess of oreos durn' obs. (:

'thesecondmonthann.

2005-04-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

backk. (:
OBS was fun.
darn exhaustngg.
bravedd it all.
sense of satisfaction.
the frkn' wounds were stngngg.
endurance.
i enjoydd it.
it passdd waye farst.
swollen eyedd.
feverish.
overcomedd.
inversedd tower.
kayakn'.
jellyfishes.
capsizngg.
quarry.
stars.
ahdu(raymond) the instructor was mr nice guyy.
im backk to boyfrndd. :DD
i wnt boyfrndd tmr.
silver it was it.
maintaindd.
evryone screamdd.
shockdd.
we didnt wnt it.
but we've all triedd.
have we disappointdd anyone?
i wonder.
im jst glad tht thnggs are ovr.
i dnt wna cryy anymores.
lost but grippdd on.
ive missdd youu.
i miss youu boyfrndd.
ytd. the FOURTEENTH.

'campcamp.

2005-04-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

i dnt care.
boyfrndd must come find me at night!
:DD
I LOVE MY BOYFRNDD.
im gna miss him.

'darkness.

2005-04-10T12:08:00.000+08:00

jst afraidd.
so afraidd.

'roams.

2005-04-10T11:55:00.000+08:00

jst wnt to see youu thr.
hugg youu.
thts all im askn' for.
narffin more.
wldd youu grnt it?
is it wrngg of me.
for wntngg youu backk so badlyy?
rewindd.
i'll take a wlk.
roam arndd.
i dnt wna come home.
if onlyy.
youu ...

'denial.pretence.

2005-04-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

thnggs will nvr be the same agn.
denial.
so much thnggs to sayy.
but yet narffin pourdd out.
fake pretence.
i swear i'll nvr be tht girl agn.

'stupiddpianot'cher.

2005-04-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

w/ my frequent headaches.
andd nw im havn' this lump on my headd.
i hope i have brain tumour.
thn i can jst go andd die.
thn evryone can rejoice.
snds kinda nice. (:
yeahh. ting's right.
im such a liar.
youu saidd youu wldnt cryy.
fcuk lars.
so much of denial. yars whdevr.
evrythngg seemdd so dull todaye.
in class. \:
no one to reallyy chat w/.
ting must be kinda dwn.
i gave her tht frkn' blank face the whole daye.
she triedd so hardd to make me smile.
im guiltyy.
hahhs. sryy. reallyy sryy.
evn whn youu werent thr whn i neededd youu.
youu dnt have to be sryy yars.
independence?
yeahh. its crap kayes.
gracia came to take the section todaye.
i went off.
wlkdd outta sch alone.
sir andd eln were in front. theyy waitdd for me.
so nice of thm.
thnkks. (:
darlng's gna pass me the adidas bagg tmr.
imagine the terror of brngngg it home.
sectionals made me laugh.
i dnt knw whyy.
steph andd i hadd gd coordination skills.
she pause i play i pause she playy.
farnie shit.
yeahh danggs-
so i came home.
slptslptslpt.
woke up. realisedd piano was cancelldd.
whyy the hell did i rush home?
frkn' t'chr.
did i mention mrs lee totallyy dissdd me off in class.
i hate her. reallyy. she sucks.
whdevr.
this is how thnggs go nw.
i'll be like this.
shut up.
leave me alone.
dnt ask me whdd happendd.
cuz narffin happendd.
im jst tiredd of beingg me.
the sky is pink andd grey nw.
it feels like the worldd is endngg.
i wish it reallyy ends.
hahhs.
fcukfcukfcuk. (:
youu promisedd youu wldd be thr.
uuoyssimi.

'letitflowlarsdarns.

2005-04-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

i miss ting.
i need her lame jokes.
if onlyy she was here nw.
danggs-
i skippdd sch.
was havn' this slight fever in the morns.
but thn it subsidedd so farst.
i wntdd to go backk for bandd.
but no one's home to fetch me to sch.
im lazyy to wlk to the fcukn' station.
thn wlk to sch andd stuffs.
danggs-
whdevr.
so my daye wnt by so slackdd.
but i stardiedd a lil.
practisedd my flute.
i wonder whds the compulsoryy thngg to attendd band todaye.
still no updatedd news frm bitch.
she calldd me jst nw. tldd me to go backk for bandd.
i bet she missdd me.
but sryy ehs.
she's so nice too.
droppdd me a note at my blogg. (:
im alrights. reallyy alrights.
tmr's a busyy bussy daye.
gort sectionals in the afternoon.
i need to leave earlyy.
thn i need to rush home.
mom cnt fetch me frm sch cuz she's gngg to wrk.
she's gort a job andd she's harppie.
so i have to go for piano lessons tmr.
i jst realisedd i lost my appetite. \:
i need to practise my piano lates.
i still have to carry on stardiengg chinese.
thr's this test on fridaye.
urps.
syf is so comn'.
i need to practise on the flute more.
im like so short of breath. thts frkn' badd.
im planningg for tmr.
its eithr i take a cab backk frm sch or take public transport.
fcukfcukfcukfcukfcuk.
im so boredd.
i dnt wna knw anymores.
maybe yars.
distnt thn.
fcukfcukfcukfcukfcukfcukfcuk.
my dada has bannedd me frm usngg the wrdd.
but who cares rights.
im feelngg narffin nw.
dead deadd.
my minds blankk.
andd im typngg jst non stop.
i dnt knw whyy.
danggs-
its so shitty here.
i wna go out.
i wna get outta the house nw.
i wna go for a wlk.
maybe i reallyy shldd.
ahs whdevr.
this sucks.
youu suckk.
andd i knw.
i suckk more.
LOATHE ME LARS.
fcukn' thngg.
i'll continue to be like this frm now on.
ignorance.
i wna change.
i dnt wna be me anymores.
its tirngg.
too tirngg.
fcukfcukfcukfcukfcuk.
im nort nuts.
im nort insane.
jst fcuk it.
feelnggless.
seriouslyy. i dnt feel a thngg anymores.

'brkkitall.

2005-04-06T09:41:00.000+08:00

rewind.
msges nort repliedd.
i need youu backk.
the weaklngg.
here's a pause.
to my evrythngg.
):
dnt cryy.

'apause.

2005-04-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

ru guo yao zhou qing ni ji de wo.
ru guo nan guo qing ni wang le wo.
i will miss youu.

'dangggs-.

2005-04-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

im so proudd of my dada.
:DD
he gave me his namecardd ytd.
i STAREDD at it.
thn saw the MANAGER thngg. :DD
it makes me veryy harppie lars. i dnt knw whyy.
he's been a manager for so longg alrdyy, BUT STILL. :DD
he's bought the seven seatr car andd its comn' in real soon.
HE WNTS TO BUYY A NEW PIANO FOR ME TOOS.
so swt. (: but i rejectedd it lars.
must save moneyy. :DD
yars. lkn' at my bitch nw. i find her so cute.
the hair she has nw so suits her.
MY BI.TCH IS CUTE. darn cute.
SO IS VINCENT.
:DD
I LOVE GRN.
whyy does she have to do this?
isn't she an arsehole?
hehh. i shldd loathe her.
im still wondern' boutx stuffs.
its been so longg. but i heaven found the answr yet. \:
ooh yeahh. grt accomplishment. passdd my math. (:
i was like showngg off ytd to evryone.
evn howchye. lols.
still addictedd to yellowcard's OnlyOne.
toy soldier rocks too. :DD
boyfrndd's pinches are damn painful.
BUT HE PROMISEDD NVR TO PINCH ME AGNS.
dnt knw whdd the fcuk is happenin' nw.
danggs-
green pepper. \:
thrs chinese test this fridaye.
andd i need to frkn' score well.
STARDIE LARS.
roar.
STOP YR NONSENSE.
dnt make her tear.
he doesn't love youu.
he loves her.
CHECK OUT WENXUAN'S BLOGG.
ITS SUPER CUTE. :DD

'illusions.

2005-04-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

heardd youu whispern to me.
whn i was aslp.
i heardd a faint "iloveyouu.
was it jst a drm?
im lovedd by my boyfrndd. :DD

'theuglyypicinthephone.

2005-04-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

GAWDS.
frkn' copycats. :DD
LOATHES. (:
LOATHES LOATHES LOATHES.
youu. :DD
danggs-
boyfrndd's holdn' my phone nw.
HE WNTS TO STEAL MY PIC IN THE PHONE.
the veryy uglyy one. lols.
hadd math tuition in the morns.
i didnt understndd a thngg. \:
gortta struggle w/ hmwrk this time rndd AGNS.
british council was SO borngg.
i hadd my doodlngs on the bk agns.
ITS DAMN COOL KAYES. :DD
went to sakae at the airport w/ boyfrndd todaye after british council.
I WAS HUNGRYY.
first time he was full kayes.
UNFAIR SHAT. \:
danggs-
he sent me home after tht.
went for dinner w/ the familyy.
pickdd sissy frm her boyfrndd's house.
andd we went to this frkn' foodcourt. \:
urps.
i was expectn' smthngg more classy.
HEHH.
the tomyam SUCKDD. \:
boyfrndd went to his aunt's.
his familyy is damn frnddlyy lars. (:
SO UNLIKE MINE.
hehh.
DANGGS-
yr jst jealous. hehh. ADMIT IT LARS.
im the harppiest girl.
cuz he LOVES me.
MY BOYFRNDD DOESNT OWE ME TEN BUCKS.
ANDD I DNT OWE HIM TEN KISSES TOO. :DD
fair andd square. \:

'rahhhs.

2005-04-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

GORT A NEW PHONE.
lousyy model lars.
hehh.
same numbr. (:
urps.
NO MORE TAGBOARDD.
too borngg.
GIVE ME MORE HUGGS PEEPOS.
darns.
my hands are NUMB.
im freezn'.
MEET ME TMR BOYFRNDD.
I LOVE YOUU no matter whds.

'ididntknw.

2005-04-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

alrights?
doubt it all.
i didnt knw my unimportance.
i didnt knw my dependence on youu.
i didnt knw the darkk streets werent so scaryy afterall.
i didnt knw tht i was wlkn' it alone.
i didnt knw thnggs wldd turn out this waye.
i didnt knw whyy i wntdd to wlk it by myself.
i didnt knw.
all i knw was tht i neededd youu.
whdd i reallyy wishdd for was,
tht i cldd see youu thr.
but youu werent.
it was jst me against the darkness.
gort shunndd awyy. once agn.

'sighhh.

2005-04-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

do youu evn care?

'FCUKNHELL.

2005-04-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

FCUK.
I LOATHE HER.
I HATE HER.
FCUK.
WHYY?!
FRK HER.
FRK YOUU.
FRK IT MAN.
JST GO ANDD DIE.
DAMN.
THIS IS HELL.

'liar.

2005-03-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

boyfrndd updatedd the last entryy. :DD
okayes.
CNT YOUU SEE THT IM FRKN' DITCHDD BY YA'LL.
danggs-
yeahh. MY fault. SRYY. whdevr.
i ABHOR the atts kayes.
frk it frk it frk it.
ROAR.
I FRKN' DNT WNA GIVE A DAMN ANYMORES. (:
i felt my own selfishness todaye.
ONLYY FOR ME.
jst mine.
onlyy mine.
darns.
was wrngg.
but i didnt care.
all i wnt is youu.
cnt youu see?
whdd youu once tldd me has become a lie nw?
the vulgarities.

darl'n.

2005-03-31T16:11:00.000+08:00

he's such a darl'n.
she's such a swtie.
adore us!
ILOVEPRETTY.
ILOVEHOTTIE.

WE IMPAIR TO EACH OTHER.

'bleahs.

2005-03-31T15:29:00.000+08:00

u're my sunshine. (:
the phys t'chr says tht opposites attract.
prolly yars.
the debonair andd the unpretty.
danggs-
im at boyfrndd's nw.
he's havn' lunch.
andd im rottn' here. : DD
gna do the art thngg lates.
thrs piano too.
im feeln' so lethargic.
slpyy lars.
danggs-
kokstr is borngg. admit it lars.
I NEED TO SLP. \:
i wnt backk his phone.
BIGG sryy.
boyfrndd's moodyy.
his hair gort cut todaye.
still my prettyboy lars. : DD
i dread gngg thr nw. it stnkks. seriouslyy.
it sucks.
IM STILL SLPYY LARS.
blinks.

'lostitall.

2005-03-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

lost it.
gone.
the receipt.
thn the phone.
its the remorse im feeln'.
tears.
\:
i didnt wnt thm.
i didnt need thm.
i neededd youu.
youu usedd to be a phonecall awyy.
a msg awyy.
but whr are youu nw?
appearn' at yr doorstep was whdd i wntdd to do.
but cldd i?
helplessness.
i need to learn to survive w/out the phone.
take it backk pls.
i deserve this punishment.
she's seen it all.
the love youu've showerdd on me.

'sighh. heartbreak.

2005-03-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

my handd gort swept awyy.
i didnt mindd.
secrets.
he minds.
gna be kept in the darkk.
probablyy.
broken my promise.
sryy.
no tlkngg.
i wlkdd my waye.
bye.
bye.
no gdbye hugg.
heartbrkr.
dnt cryy.
if onlyy he knw.
but i'll jst shut up.

'TWENTYSIX.

2005-03-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

how does it feel accomplishn' twenty pages of math?
hahhs. totallyy bushdd. totallyy sickk of math. TOTALLY AWESOME. :DD
ting's so right. i have smone to DOTE on me. andd im reallyy harppie tht its him.
like after ONE fcukn' yr. its backk to him.
don sent me home todaye. its nice of him. reallyy. BIGG THNKK YOUU. (:
but actuallyy he hadd no keys to go home thts whyy lars.
chattdd boutx stuffs. he was listenn' to his frkn' MP3. so most of the time i playdd by myself.
steppdd hardd on the grndd. kick stones. pluck leaves. danggs-
vonn andd chelmin criedd todaye. have more confidence lars! ya'll can do it one! yeahh. : DD
Shakespeare In Love ROCKS.
i miss STANLEY.
darns.
i forgort to mention boutx frkn' copycats ytd. YEAHH. THEYY DISS ME OFF. i WILL hate thm.
smtimes i feel like narffin to ya'll anymores. ditchdd by my frndds.
don saidd i was in deep thoughts jst nw.
boutx whds?
Youu, my swtie.
OOH todaye's the twentysixth!
HEHH. TWO MORE MONTHS TO MY FRKN' BERFDAYE.
lols. typical.

FRKO!

2005-03-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

my boyfrndd is calldd Stanley.
nort stanely. : DD
jst tht fcukn' ball.
kickdd here andd thr.
fCUK.
my addiction to youu.
IM HERE TO SHOUT OUT THT I HATE YOUU NW.
YOUU JST SUCKK.
DNT ASK.
JST SHUT UP.
ANDD GET OUTTA MY LIFE.
THE SIGHT OF YOUU MAKES ME WNA PUKE.
LIKE SHOO MANN.
YR JST SM IDIOT IN MY LIFE NW.
FRKN' YOUU.
DARNS.
DISS ME OFF.
BIGG ATT YOUU'VE GORT.
IVE GORT MINE TOO ALRIGHTS.
SUCKR.
i hate youu.
wldd youu evr knw how this tastes?
bitterdd.
myheartbleeds-
i wnt Youu.
whrs the secureness?
HARPPIE BERFDAYE RONNIE! mr fatfat. :DD
youu hadd the hk princess moo smell on youu todaye. PERFECT.

'thesection. \:

2005-03-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

whn she didnt pickk up my call,
whn she didnt replyy my msg.
the onlyy songg tht startdd playn' in my headd was "perfect.
cuz we lost it all, narffin lasts forevr.
too busyy w/ life i guess. \:
she was the one who intro-dd me to simple plan. (:
danggs-
i miss her. reallyy, maybe no one knws.
its alrights. (:
ive passdd my chem. momsie was proudd of me. she allows me to go to the chalet tmr. grt. : DD
i shldd wrk harder. nort let anyone dwn. yars.
it felt so shitty whn theyy didnt bothr.
it was so cute how theyy saidd one two three "sorry togethr.
its reallyy nice to jst chat w/ the section smtimes. (:
although it aint all boutx the gd stuffs. hehh.
ive learnt to accept the waye thnggs are nw.
well, kinda still struggln'.
My Secret.
no one shldd evr knw.
chelmin's alwys sayn' how cute peepos are. she doesnt knw tht she's one reallyy cute girlie ive seen too.
i love her giggles andd her sneezes. they're reallyy adorable.
saw those redd eyes. was it tht youu were missn' him? smile yushuang. (:
i aint a gd consoler. jst maybe a frndd who wldd be thr for youu? perhaps.
its how amazn' youu see how thnggs change.
Lk. the world's spinnin'.
andd im movn' on. w/ youu.
am i a lousyy frndd?
or am i the worst gf?

failureee.

2005-03-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

I FLUNKDD AGN. \:

yrthereason.

2005-03-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

i'll tryy.
jst to see youu smile agn.
If Yr Nort The One.
i jst wna lay my love on youu.
Glisten.
perfect daye w/ youu.
im so pamperdd.
caps. pencil case. LOVE.
danggs-
Youu. (:
loves.

'OVER.

2005-03-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye.
dangss-
Lindsay Lohan. -Over.

'stann'splace.(:

2005-03-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

frkn'.
my throat hurts.
blinks.
i miss kl life.
i need my freedom.
four f9s.
gawds.
i cnt stardie anymores.
thrs no motivation.
katrina. ive gort youu smthngg. (:
i cnt be so pamperdd.
but i wna thnkk youu for lovn' me. (:
the cuteHOLE is darn cute.
i like his bagg.
I LOVE BIGG SHIRTS. :DD
i SUCK at gb.
danggs.
rOxy.
i wnt more shirts.
i wnt more bermudas.
i wnt more trackshorts.
i wnt more shoes.
i wnt a new bagg.
i wnt a new pencil case.
BUCKS. i need thm.
bi.tch; sir; don; huishan.
bOyfrndd.
i guess i need youu babyy.

'harppiefirstanni. (:

2005-03-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

OKAYES.
IM BACKK!
boyfrndd did the updatn' WELL. (:
BIGG THNKK YOUU!
bought him a mambo shirt.
but he preferdd mine.
exchangn'.
the hotel was fun. b:
three rms interconnect.
gort to knw SHIRUI better.
she's a reallyy cute girlie.
gort gastric on the secondd daye.
their bandd was grt.
real humble peepos.
i love thm.
their flautist rockdd hardd. (:
i was HOME SICKK.
more of boyfrnddsick. hehh.
thn startdd zibi-ngg most of the time.
i didnt like it the waye we are nw.
smhow, i feel like im jst dirt.
thn abriel's phone brought me alort of entertainment.
BIGG thnks!
i was a glutton thr. HEHH.
home. (:
four dayes. it passdd pretty farst.
ONE MONTH. (:
harppieharppie.
sugardd.
youu are mine.
fourteenth.

In My Head.

2005-03-14T03:47:00.000+08:00

Cos you're all in my head.
I think about it over and over again.
I keep picturing you with me.
I cant wait to see you.
I wonder if you're thinking bout me.
Thinking about the same shit,
over and over again.
I can't go to sleep without lovin' you.
I replay over and over again.
I remember the day you left,
i was so damn stuck.
You were playing in my head over and over again.
It hurts so bad.
Now that i feel love, that you're coming back.
Everytime i close my eyes,
i think about it over and over again.
Over and over again.
Cos you're all in my head.

LOVEbug is coming home tomorrow!

boyfrndd.

boyfrndd.

2005-03-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

WHERR's MY GIRLFRNDD!

posted: BOYYFRNDD.

'REMINDERSANDDSTUFFS.

2005-03-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

REMINDERS for tmr.
kayes.
MUST take the shoe bagg tmr.
MUST ask boyfrndd to brngg the shoe for me tmr. MSG HIM OR CALL HIM IN THE MORNS.
MUST pass paul frank's shirt to bi.tch. she's outta shirts to wear. \:
MUST buyy a pretty cap for boyfrndd.
MUST pass my phone to boyfrndd.
MUST ask boyfrndd to collect hmwrk for me.
MUST help vonn to take the scores.
MUST see boyfrndd tmr morns. MUSTMUST.
MUST tryy to stayy awke on the bus. momsie tldd me to do so. \: hehh.
MUST hugg momsie andd dada gdbye tmr. (: im the BEST daughter.
MUST put the comb andd shampoo thnggs in my bagg.
MUST tryy to make the bagg flatter cuz its veryy uglyy. maybe i can jump on it. b:
to boyfrndd:
MUST KEEP THIS BLOGG GROOVN'.
MUST MISS ME.
MUST WAIT FOR ME.
MUST PICK ME UP FRM SCH ON MONDAYE. will tryy to call youu whn ive reachdd.
gawds. im so demandngg.
trust me kayes. (:
its nothngness alrdyy.
pinkyyswear!
LOVESYOUU.
four dayes.
BE HARPPIE cuz yr gf's nort gna bugg youu.
bitten by youu agn. b:

'crazyyshit.

2005-03-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

so cuteHOLE doesnt wnt me to update my blogg.
who cares boutx him lars.
HEHH.
frkn' boy.
guess whdd.
i smiledd after readn' the letter.
it was swt. (:
thr was phys andd chem tests todaye.
thnkk i can flunk it?
maybe lars.
nort sure.
phys can go eat shit alrdyy.
chem can jst go andd die.
art is crap lars. waste my time onlyy.
whds w/ the att lars.
darnit. :DD
so yars. cuteHOLE is nw sayngg im an idiot.
BIG thnkk youu.
gawds. he's veryy cute. (:
i heardd a veryy act cute laughter todaye.
mann. cnt stndd lars.
i wntdd to ask her to shaddup.
call me a meano.
but wait. i didnt kayes. i TOLERATDD.
andd nw esthr is tryngg to compare w/ me.
she says im rich.
i tldd her its onlyy a few cents.
so GEYGAO. lols.
i findd fangjie veryy cute.
i dnt knw whyy. HEHH.
thn bitch was like sayngg ME TOO RIGHTS?
danggs.
thickskinndd.
so i saw ze w/ her straightendd hair todaye.
we playdd the frkn' coin spin thngg.
darn farnie.
WHYY ARENT YOUU REPLYN' ME.
okayes.
i dnt knw how to do math.
SHIT. i dnt wna fail agn lars.
tmr's the frkn' test.
gawds.
HELPHELPHELP.
i wna sack the tutor. lols.
thn bitch andd i saw shuan todaye.
andd she copycattdd me.
we both saidd.
i reallyy miss her lors" togethr.
bigg fat copycat. lols.
wna thnkk gracia for nort givn' up on us.
wna thnkk mrs chua for the motivation.
im on my waye to leadn' the section to beingg a better asl.
i hope i can do well.
practisepractisepractise.
yars. (:
im hyperdd.
\:
weird.
okayes.
its late.
andd im tlkn' crap here.
HEHH.
gd riddens. SICKENIN' PEEPOS. :DD
stop readn' lars.
do yr own stuffs lars.
FWAHAHAHAHAS.

'loveloveloves.

2005-03-08T19:36:00.000+08:00

will youu miss me?
it spilldd outta his mouth.
i cnt denyy it.
i almost teardd.
i will.
feeln' frkn' weak nw.
catch me whn i fall.
embrace me in yr arms once agn.
cuteARSE.
cuteHOLE.
frko.
idiot.
(:
loves.
im the harppiest girl.
hehh.
arent youu jealous? (:

'takecarebitch.

2005-03-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

tippngg my toes.
reachngg for youu.
i am evrythngg i am cuz of youu.
i was jst narffin.
before i met youu.
before youu paintdd my love.
youu & me.
love is jst a serious heartbreakr.
i didnt mean to fall in love w/ youu.
im sorry i cnt be perfect.
bitch.
i miss youu.
take care.
yr nort forgortten.
rmb tht. (:
hear me scrm.
i cnt take it anymore.
im tryngg.
to be independent.
whn evryone jst wlkdd past me.
in the othr direction.
all tht was left.
was me.
i knw it was loneliness agn.
i triedd to overcome it w/ a smile.
im still tryngg.
ive flunkdd it all.
its piercngg my ears.
the noise.
do youu hear thm too?
pick up the brokn pieces.
ive heard it all.
ive put it aside.
youu knw youu shldd nvr open it agn.
burn tht fcukn' thngg.
i'll be silent.

needtobetheverhhbest.

2005-03-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

tell me yr secrets.
i can feel yr pain.
i saw yr laughter todaye.
whn youu were a monstr.
tickles.
gawds.
for once jst nw.
i thought i was gngg to die of too much tickles.
watchdd a series of unfortunate evnts.
it was nice. ((:
sunny was waye cute.
violet was gorgeous.
i lovedd it all.
i jst wnt to make youu smile agn.
i need to be the best.
yr best.
i saw it.
i was bleedngg thn.
but i actdd.
as if narffin happendd.
did youu knw?

'isolationn.

2005-03-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

wldd youu evr wnt to be me?
dnt tryy.
I'm regrettn'.
Take my photo off the wall if it jst won't sing for youu.
was it youu?
I'm sorry.
youu dnt have to be.
it sucks beingg like this.
Questions.
i didn't need the answrs to thm.
whyy am i thnkn' boutx thm.
Leave it.
i wnt to be tht girl.
the one w/ the genuine laughters.
trulyy, i miss youu badlyy.
readd btwn the lines.
youu wont knw how this feels.
isolation.

'stann.)):

2005-03-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

i did tryy.
whdd do i get in return?
im still at fault.
i triedd.
reallyy, i did.
if onlyy ya'll knw.
whyy did i let thm fall dwn?
whyy cldnt i holdd thm back.
life's a bitch nw.
evrythngg's gngg the wrngg waye rndd.
fcukngg idiots.
jst get outta my life.
this is my life.
youu dnt have to bothr at all.
i dnt need yr opinions.
i dnt need yr insults.
seriously, jst get out.
whyy do this?
does it make youu feel harppier.
FCUK.
go awyy.
pls.
it hurts me seengg youu like this.
im jst fcukn' dwn.
frk it.
enough.
slp tight.
i'll prayy for youu.
i miss yr smiles.
the real ones.
brngg thm backk.
)):

'atitfortat.

2005-03-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

jst smile to me.
i'll be satisfiedd.
mine ?
((:
ting" i knw it wldnt be forevr.
but i'll tryy to make it till eternityy.
youu saidd narffin lasts forevr.
i knw.
i'll jst tryy.
it wldnt harm. ((:
give me yr hugg.
andd i'll give youu /it.
im the lousiest gf.
jst kill me.

'bluuee.

2005-03-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

)):
im feeln' blue.

'thecrazyyarse.

2005-02-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

lyngg here.
on the floor.
whr youu love me.
hehh.
she wnts to control my life.
NO WAYE.
defiance.
im the HARPPIEST girl.
: DD
see me smile.
see me laugh.
see me glow.
youu'll be so envious.
SO VERYY.
flunkd'.
agn andd agn.
tis' is gettn' nowhr.
but i dnt give a damn.
((:
JST ROCK IT.
youu wont understndd.
uncertaintyy.
no.
youu need to give me tht BIGGgrin backk.
SMILESMILESMILE.
gawds. youu cnt be like tht.
its SO shitty.
hehh.
tmr's smthngg to lk forwardd to.
but art's gna suckk. EEEW.
alrights.
shoelace. TANGLEDD.
ya'll can jst go andd die.
frkos. i hate ya'll.
imSOinlovew/youu.
are youu too ?

imthehyperyyy !

2005-02-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

he bites alrights.
he wnts to leave bitemarks on me.
THE SWT.
: DD
smtimes, i feel so grt.
im such a luckyy girl.
be envious. b:
IM LOVN' YOUU.
i am evrythngg i am. cuz of youu.
my horttie.
gawds. : DD
melts.
alrights. went out w/ ze andd bi.tch todaye.
smtimes theyy get so draggy.
i get pissdd off. DELAYNGG. lols.
but it gort alright after awhile.
i didnt wna ruin the daye.
w/ my attitudngg. : DD
im such a niceyy. fwahahas.
went to mos at compass.
thn crappdd.
thr were two young girls. w/ DAMN NICE FEATURES.
im so jealous. b:
thn we headedd to j8.
wntdd to catch a movie.
but evrythngg seems stupidd.
so went to The cafe cartel.
ze disgracedd herself thr alort of times. b: twice.
nvms. b:
we tk pics kayes !
me andd ze's pretty hands.
we chattdd. crappdd.
fun. : DD
boyfrndd calldd andd startdd disturbn' me w/ his gf.
HEHH. b:
thn after awhile. he calldd agn.
tldd me he broke up w/ her alrdyy. lols.
my boyfrndd's cute alrights.
i SO love him. b:
don came to join us. hahhs.
gawds. its been longg since i describedd my daye well.
I MISS MY BOYFRNDD.
momsie's gna wrk at the boutique tmr. COOLSHIT. : DD
shoppn' tmr. WHEES. thr's tuition too. EEEW.
bi.tch bought me this HUGE lolli. : DD lemondd.
i bought her the watermelondd.
its in the fridge nw. we smuggledd both into the bus.
evryone was starngg.
I BET THEYY WERE JEALOUS OF OUR LOLLIS.
anywayes. thnkks bi.tch.
im so harppie nw.
dnt knw whyy.
ITS TIME TO GO DISTURB MY BOYFRNDD.
fwahahas.
im so evil.
RINGRING"

'lovelyyyouu.

2005-02-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

jst like a snap of fingers.
it happendd.
fragile thngg.
it can be so sour.
it can be so swt.
jiekou's endngg is damn nice.
farstforwardd.
ru guo yao zhou qing ni ji de wo.
ru guo nan guo qing ni wang le wo.
((:
damn nice okayes !
gawds.
i have an uglyy eye.
EEEW. b:
noschformetodaye.
waye nice.
thr are two aliens in our level.
rights-
boyfrndd agrees.
rock hardd core.
im lovn' youu.
im so in love w/ youu.
ive fallen.
fallen so hardd.
hugg/me.

im hurt.

2005-02-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

this sucks.
tearstaindd.
sor ry.
i dnt believe in miracles.
but i do believe in youu.
im jst runnn' awyy frm it.
tell me tht it aint comn' true.

'katkat

2005-02-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

might be a lil short.
the begginng' was a lil weirdd.
unfamiliar feelng'.
thnggs gort better.
craps andd stuffs startdd kickn'.
fun. ((:
smtimes i wishdd it cldd be like tht all the time.
on andd on.
i'll prayy for a daye to be like this agn.
i believe tht it will come true.
grnt it.
frkn'youu.
i missdd youu.

iloveyouuuuuu !

2005-02-21T18:38:00.000+08:00

our lips are sealdd.
yr my best doctor. ((:
yr smell.
lay thr.
dnt turn awyy.
teardd. the ytd.
was bleedngg.
no one needs to knw.
strngr. much strngr.
i dnt need youu anymore.
get outta this shit. : DD
youu wntdd it.
rights-
youu saidd im no whr safe w/out youu.
ive drwndd.
in yr love.
huggs.
vindicatdd i am selfish i am wrngg.

'missyouuuuu!

2005-02-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

hypocritical.
f cuk.
go awyy.
screwdd.
yars. whdevr.
hehh.
rock this shit.
bits by bits.
step by step.
hayys youu. shut up lars.
im frkn' irritatdd.
im harppie for youu.
coldjokes.
criticism.
maligndd.
jst lies.
dnt speakk.
youu make me wna LALA.
i faildd ss too.
coolshit.
stardies. chuckdd.
dnt give a damn.
jst bullshit.
hehh.
freako.
youu suckk.
strngr thn ytd.
harppie berfdaye weiping ! : DD
the ass stone. GONE.
ss t'chr is so shitty.
the crush. b:
so rry.
exchngdd phone. YAYY.
thnkk youu. b:
melts.
imissyouu.

'FWAHAHAHAS.

2005-02-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

i knw youu hate me.
but stop the lies.
theyy arent true.
yr so makn' me loathe youu nw.
i didnt thnkk i neededd those.
HAHH.
evryone faildd amathtest in class.
pretty cool actuallyy.
highest was eight upon twentyfive.
lowest was zero.
i gort six alrights. b:
roar.
gawdd. im scandalizedd. HEHH.
youu reallyy suckk.
whdevr.
GO ANDD DIE.
failfailfail. : DD
howchye. hahhs- im failngg w/ him lars.
dnt be jealous. BIGGFREAKOS.
thecloseness.
i smell youu.
youu are candyyfiedd.
addiction.
TINGSHIFU. : DD
BI.TCH. : DD
my lovers.

'addictiontoanjing.

2005-02-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

ive been failngg evrythngg.
all my subjcts.
phys. chem.
i knw im gna flunk amath andd e.geog too.
done thm. andd jst doodledd on the paper.
i dnt reallyy care much anymores.
theyy dnt mean anythngg.
bi.tch is candyy-fiedd.
i bought her swts for valentines. ((:
hur. \: sir was tryngg to be farnie jst nw. b:
he's brngngg me to the airport this sundaye.
fwahahas. rocks. take care lars.
im in love w/ anjing.
im in love w/ youu.
a few more hours.

'overwhelmddloneliness.

2005-02-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

im missngg youu alrdyy.
I'm sryy.
the manyy questions i askdd.
none of thm i knw the answr.

love. menort ?

2005-02-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

do youu love me ?

'imhypedd !

2005-02-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

alrights.
climax.
i fell flat todaye. b:
it was awful ! but thn it was damn farnie.
mathpartner's idea of playngg tht spinnngg game.
EEKS. hahhs-
abdul rahman is my frndd.
clauds is yusof bin ishak's frndd.
ss t'chr is such a ridicule.
the att. i didnt need 'em. hahhs- no thnkks.
ping was damn harppie todaye whn she reachdd sch.
smone sent her to sch todaye. ((: swt.
i feel lykk a stranger to youu nw. whyy. take care my frndd.
guihao's att todaye was waye cool. damn damn nice. i wna learn frm her.
punkdd.
rights-
wlkngg to take those engg stuffs ALONE all the time is so borngg. i wnt companyy.
blinks. mrs tey is a verhh cute t'chr. hahhs-
ive been a naughtyy girl. have nort done art.
he didnt do too. so yars. im nort the onlyy one. hees" thnkks. b:
vincent laughdd. \:
hahhs- i wntdd the swts lors. unfair.
i knw i was invisible.
tlkdd so much in class todaye.
hypedd.
miss kuek was in a gd mood todaye. she offerdd us biscuits. lols.
we were let off earlyy too.
the rm was freezngg.
clauds accompaniedd me to wait for stann.
hahhs-
shakn'. b: crazyy.
chattdd.
wlkdd.
drnkk.
home.
thnkk youu ! but dnt be so stupidd nxt time lars. b:
tell me kayes !

blahhhhss.

2005-02-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

crystal is cute.
stop denyngg it.
hahhs-
i smell youu.
((:
lean on me.
lk at me.
smile at me.
princess moo's perfume. b:
in the cab.
sayy cheese.
swt.
for youu my onlyy one.

to youu idiots.
stop copyngg.
frkn' copycats.
eeew.

bi.tch. i love youu lars.
dnt be so sadd. dnt be so moodswngyy. ((:
smile lars. thn youu'll be evn cuter. b:

art nort done.
this is screwdd.
yars. i onlyy did five questions for phys.
andd i doodledd at the backk page.
scrawlnggs. ahahas. screwdd"
fieryy.
thrs tuitions tmr.
math andd engg.
busyybusyyladyy. b:
im nort gna flunk a math. NO.

this is my life.
stop bitchngg into it.
arsehole.
dislykk me.
loathe me.
hate me.
i dnt give a damn.
jst get out.

vindicatdd.
i am selfish i am wrngg.

'thefeelngsbottledd.

2005-02-03T18:55:00.000+08:00

readd btwn the lines.
it aint me anymore.
i wlk alone.
jst nvr meant to be.
i smiledd.
cuz it happendd.
innocence.
((:
loves.
bits by bits.
ruindd.
fadngg.
changes.
gone.
shakn' hardd.
crashdd.
cuz of me.
fear.
tears.
i love youu.

didnt youu sayy tht youu wldd teach me phys ?
wldd i flunkk it tmr ?
whadd happendd.
emptyy words.
im lost.
w/out youu.

give me tht bagg.
give me tht wallet.
give me tht cap.
give me those skirts.
give me tht watch.
give me tht hp.
give me yrself.
blinks-

my frndd.
i'll be thr.
for youu. ((:

dnt.
it aint worth it.
anger.
frustration.
tears.
save thm.

let me pass my tests. pls.

this aint whadd i wntdd.

did youu knw i miss youu ?
i miss youu.

IM GNA LEAVE THE PHYS PAPER BLANK TMR.
i thnkk its cool. b:
hell. PHYSICS. \: crap lars.

thefeelngg. blue.

2005-02-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

screw it.
dwn dwn dwn.
who cares.
minus bits.
blue.
deadd.
the manyy tyms i triedd to holdd back those tears.
i didnt fail.
i'll smile. i will.

thefrknggcryy.

2005-02-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

hello thr, angel frm my nightmare.
dnt waste yr tym on me yr alrdyy the voice inside my headd.
fireflyy. ((:
clauds. ((:
weiping. ((:
mathpartner. ((:
yushuang. ((:
bi.tch. ((:
ting. ((:
jo. ((:
bern. ((:
phylx. ((:
the swtie pies.
thnkks. ((:
doodledd.
scribblnggs.
daze.
i solemnlyy swear tht im up to no gd. lumos !
papercut.
copycats. lykk youu. suck.
get outta my life.
i promise i'll loathe youu.
roar. -ibite.
narffin lasts forevr.
rights.
fallen.
im an angel.
TSK. b:
i was defeatdd ytd.
i diedd this morns.
youu savedd me in the evenngg.
loves.

imsryystanleyy.

2005-01-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

hatredd.
frm youu.
to me.
hate me all youu wnt.
do it.
but i will still- *******.
secretlyy.
in a corner.
frm a distance.
it doesnt matter.
nvr will i show it anymore.

brokenn.lies..

2005-01-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

narffin's wrngg.
-im smilngg.
its perfect.
-im speakngg.
its onlyy a drm.
-im here.
its nort hurtngg me.
-im wlkngg awyy.
the lies beneath evrythngg.

thesetears.

2005-01-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

i lk arndd-
evrywhr-
whr youu are suppose to be-
but i nvr seem to findd youu-
andd yr all i yearn to see-
i jst cnt seem to see whadd made youu change yr mindd-
all these tym i tht i knw youu-
whn reallyy, i was blindd-
but i knw tht i will nort hate youu-
andd i knw i nvr will-
cuz i caredd boutx youu thn-
andd i care still-
evn whn youu hurt me-
youu cnt seem to let go-
but i will go on w/out youu-
andd i wna let youu knw-
it will take some tym to mendd-
the damage tht youuve done-
but broken hearts do heal-
thts whr strength come frm-
for nw-
the tears mayy be fallngg-
the heart mayy be bleedngg-
andd my thts keep circlngg to youu-
but soon-
thnggs will get better-
if youu have hope-
thn theyy alwys do-
evn if it means loneliness-
andd evrythngg starts turnngg dark-
i will learn to let go-
till tht daye-
youu'll still be a part of me-
im afraidd to knw-
if youu have forgortten me-
id rathr nort knw nw-
save me frm fallngg dwn-
dryy these tears for me-
no-
dnt-
andd i'll be strnger-
the candle flickers out.

thefirstcutisthedeepest.

2005-01-29T14:05:00.000+08:00

i wasnt stonngg.
narffin happendd.
onlyy one sentence.
it kept gngg in my headd.
i criedd.
in front of thm.
weakk.
whocares.
invisible.
yeahh.
face it.
it has flown awyy.
cnt youu see tht ive set it free.
cnt youu see tht im tryngg to make those fears go awyy.
cnt youu see tht im tryngg nort to cryy.
cnt youu see tht its hardd.
cnt youu see it.
whyy.
i wldd have given youu all of my heart-
but thrs smone who's torn it apart-
andd he has taken jst all tht i have-
if youu wna tryy to love agn-
bleedngg.
its alright.
i'll learn how to smile. ((:

thirddtymehhs.

2005-01-27T19:39:00.000+08:00

i need a frkn' cap.
i wnt a frkn' cap.
oh rights. did i forget to tell youu smthngg.
hahhs- i hate youu.
stop yr sproutngg.
i thnkk youu suckk.
no. nort thnkk. youu definitelyy suckk.
arsehole.
hear the tickn'
hear youu scrm.
those rantn's.
written a personal memoir todaye at sch.
wrote smthngg tht i reallyy wntdd to sayy out.
i guess she has forgortten me.
okayes. nvms.
i wnt youu andd yr beautiful soul.
i didnt ps todaye. yayy ! an achievement.
at least i dnt feel guilt ridden. b:
lil tlkngg.
presence. ((:
tym.
fireflyy.
i'll leave youu alone.
i passdd my math test this tym rndd. b:
smile. cuz i love youu. ((:
nort the swtest.
but who cares.
the waye youu are.
jst rocks.